Feel like giving up today :(

[Pebbledashery]

Sorry for another thread.. just feel so downtrodden tonight.
Feel like giving up and letting the abuser have whatever he wants. He is going to terrorise me for the rest of my life. Tried my hardest to safeguard DD, left him with 3 black bin bags, started all over again scared he's going to find out where we are :( I just cannot live my life like that.
Sorry to create another thread about it all, just have a horrible sinking feeling inside me all the time.

Do you have support?
Remember you can always talk to the Samaritans when your feelings start to overwhelm you.
Are you getting help for your understandable anxiety and PTSD?
You are so brave. You have given your DD and yourself the gift of freedom

You have done so well to come this far

You are feeling scared which is completely understandable but you are doing so well for you and DD.

Do you have any real life support? I know you went into hiding from him but is there anyone else who can support you?

Please do ask any professionals for support too e.g. your GP.

Stay as strong as possible

You have done the hardest thing by leaving and protecting your DD. Try and access any help you can and stay strong.

You are brave, there is support out there, have you access to it? Woman’s refuge?

I know, don't have much RL support due to complete relocation. Just scared about the future.

I’ve followed some of your other threads OP and what you’ve been through is just mind blowing. You’re a really strong woman and you’ve done amazing to get where you are now, despite all of his attempts to intimidate and manipulate you.

In your circumstances I would make me and my child disappear. As far away as possible, new name, new life.

I know that’s not practical in reality but it is all
I can think of which doesn’t involve him falling off of a cliff

You will get there. Your child will be ok and so
Will you be. He hasn’t won, he cant access you and he can’t have access to your daughter unsupervised either.

I’m sorry I have no practical solutions but sending you positive thoughts

Thank you. I just want to run, run far.. far.. away, but I know it will catch up with me again in the future.
Just feel so backed into a corner. I cannot ever see him ever again for the rest of my life, the thought of ever coming face to face with him or any member of his vile family and friends just makes me feel so sick.
I feel like the Judge just minimised absolutely everything we went through and described it as an "acrimonious relationship breakdown" he's going to get unsupervised contact, I don't know why I am fighting it :(