So I returned to work from mat leave earlier this year. I was a offered a different role in return as there had been a reshuffle while off and there was a vacancy. Job is OK although I only three days, predecessor worked four and was a complete work horse, working for additional hours through the night. When I started there was a backlog (there was a gap between them leaving and me starting) and one item I should've picked up was chairing, organising etc a high profile company steering group. There's no way I could've take it on due to the workload and to build up my experience. I'm not going to lie, three days is TOUGH. I don't work additional hours (unless essential) but it's three very full days, no breaks and back to back meetings so I've struggled in places to get going. I'm generally good at the main element of my job, but the expert technical stuff I need to learn which is tricky in the time I have. Throughout it all I was told there were going to be changes to the steering group and I've waited (with baited breath) for it to be nodded to start. I've however been told this week they're now getting a new role for a focused position in my current expertise (ish) although outside of my direct team who will also be taking on this element. I'm relieved on the one hand but also worried that they think I couldn't have done it, and secondly, that this expert, focused role could make me vulnerable if there is another reorg. Its a well paid job for what I do and its very flexible for my young family.
I have a tendency to overthink things but I'm feeling abit low about it.