Hard hat has been donned.
My DM died in hospital in December. She died from COVID, and was in hospital for two weeks before she died (she was admitted with a broken hip).
Trying to get hold of the hospital via phone was really difficult. I actually went to try to get up to the ward because I couldn't speak to a doctor on the phone, but was turned away.
We knew she was going downhill, but we weren't allowed to visit her. We were then phoned to be told there was nothing they could do and she was going to die. We were told we could come and visit.
I asked about PPE, as DM was on a red COVID general ward, and the doctor I spoke to said it would be provided. When I got there, I was handed a plastic pinny and gloves, and told it was fine to just wear my fabric mask.
I then sat by my DM's bedside overnight, and she died in the morning.
The ward had six beds in it, all with COVID patients on oxygen. I went on to test positive for COVID a week later.
Seven months later, I am still ill. I have had to give up work as I just can't do my job anymore. I sleep for ten hours a night and a couple of hours during the day. I can't care for my DS as I have no energy at all. I struggle to think clearly, have no concentration and my memory is really poor. I can't drive as I'm not safe to do so.
Obviously, I am angry that I am in this position. I know I am not alone, and many, many people have suffered similar or worse. But I can't help feel like this was avoidable.
On the news, we all saw people dressed in full PPE when dealing with COVID, but on this ward, all the staff just had pinnies and gloves. They did have proper masks and visors though.
My AIBU is - should I have been better protected? Not only have I lost my DM to hospital acquired COVID, but my life and that of my DS has now been hugely changed. I trusted that I would be ok, because there were no other options for PPE, and that staff did not mention the risk to me before I went onto the ward.