I don’t know if I have PTSD or something.
This last year has been extremely difficult for me. I moved to Spain with my husband and two young children. It was a good move for my husband and my kids as they have their grandparents and cousins nearby here and a better quality of life. But it wasn’t a good move for me I gave up a job I loved, my family and friends, my language and culture. We moved over at the beginning of lockdown and it was quite traumatic because we experienced cancelled removals, flights and accommodation in the week leading up to us leaving the UK. We were literally three days away from being homeless but managed to get a flight and ended up quarantining in the middle of nowhere for several months. About two weeks after arriving my father died in a really traumatic way that involved having to turn off life support. I wasn’t able to see him or attend the funeral.
I have been out of work for a year and looking after my children. I have just found a job and had my first day there. I burst into tears as soon as I left the building and had a massive anxiety/panic attack with flashbacks of my dad dying and moving over to Spain. I’m not sure what to do and feel very isolated and not strong enough to deal with the rigorous demands and challenging personalities that my new job has