To ask for help to lift my mood

[JaceLancs]

I’m at the start of a few days away (on my own) for a much needed break
I have been really looking forward to it for weeks
Then over the weekend I felt quite low and tearful - Worrying about DP, depressed about delay in reduction on restrictions, stressing about work, packed my case last night and everything I tried on just wasn’t right - being very self critical about my lack of motivation to diet etc etc
Hope you get the picture
Set off bright and early and have just stopped for coffee in a Costa (100 ish miles from home)
Then had a sudden flashback that I’ve been here before and was sat in same Costa when I took a phone call to tell me my best friend had died suddenly
Now sat here surrounded by strangers having a little cry and just want to turn round drive home and climb into bed
Trying to talk myself out of it and move on - trying to think of things to cheer myself up
Any suggestions? Buy myself a new outfit? Find a beautician or book a spa package? Luxury lunch with champagne (when I get there obviously)
Phone a friend?

For me, I would give myself a day to wallow. The last year has been tough, and it was only on stopping that my brain began to process what happened. I've worked in community pharmacy throughout, have had stand up rows with store managers about them not protecting my safety, haven't seen my friends and family, have gained weight through lack of exercise etc etc. I needed a day or two to process that, then I could recharge, eat a bloody magnificent seafood platter with an amazing bottle of wine, relax on the beach with a book I've been waiting all year to read and walk for miles on the coast path. You can't force yourself to enjoy yourself immediately and by listening to your body you'll get much more out of your break