My partner ended our 4.5yr relationship about 2 weeks ago (having been approved for fostering, her spending £1000 on furniture for the foster kids rooms and signing a lease for a new bigger family car)... the day we were matched with 2 kids she said she needed time and space, I moved back to my parents for a few days and then she phoned me and finished with me... PHONED ME?!?!
I am still devastated and I know I am not the only person to go through a break up but I don't feel happy, I can't sleep or eat... I am 31 in September and I just feel like not only have I lost the person I was going to marry (we both had engagement rings for each other but she was quite clear she wouldn't propose to me until I fixed my anxiety and how I behaved due to this) as well as the opportunity for these foster children to join our family, and also the fact we were going to be starting IVF next year :( I just feel like everything I thought was happening has now disappeared in a puff of smoke and I am now all alone, having to sell my beautiful house, no girlfriend, no kids on the horizon, no marriage to the woman I love...
PLEASE can someone offer me any words of love or kindness or advice... I'm taking prozac and working with 2 different types of therapist (one for CBT due to anxiety and another to help me deal with this situation)... I really am trying and I just feel so guilty that I wasn't able to fix the issues quickly enough or good enough to keep her wanting to be with me :(
Please say I will feel better, and I'm not too late to find someone in the future and have kids etc...
I just feel hopeless!