To regret TTC this month and hope it hasn't worked?

[blaisealex]

Have a 3 year old DS. Also had a miscarriage last year at 6 weeks.

For several months now I've been desperate to TTC again. Sort of clouded vision, in fantasy baby world. DH was reluctant but agreed to try.

TMI: we DTD Monday Night and Tuesday morning. App said fertile window is this week. Particularly Tuesday. But I always know when I'm ovulating because of discharge and ovulation pain. Which has occurred today (Thursday).

Anyway, I woke up on Wednesday morning feel utterly horrified and very regretful that we hadn't used protection. It was a huge WTF was I thinking moment. I don't want another baby. Well, part of me does, obviously. That's why I was trying in the first place. But it's not practical on so many levels. I can't cope with 9 months of pregnancy, sacrificing my bad habits, or going through labour. Lack of sleep, money, etc. And many more complex reasons. Pros and cons, etc.

So AIBU, to now be desperately hoping that it hasn't worked. And that DHs Tuesday Sperm died quickly now that I'm ovulating two days later.

And now I have the the torturous two week wait before I find out whether we've been lucky or unlucky.

I thought the MaP still works a few days after, just not as effectively as it can thin the womb lining and decrease the chance of implantation? I could be wrong (it's been a long time since I've taken it) but near sure that was the case.

I’ve found in both of my planned pregnancies that I had a wobble upon finding out I was actually pregnant. I find pregnancy/childbirth scary physically and I think knowing that this is coming is inevitably hard to deal with. I hope you may feel better once you’ve got your head around it?

OP if you get ellaOne it will work even if you're ovulating.

Good luck

It sounds like you do want a second child but are scared of the realities. I was the same.
Weighing up the risks versus pros I'd never have gone for it but deep down it was what I wanted.
It took a happy accident and all of those worries quickly faded.
If you aren't pregnant and don't want to try again, of course that's fine and might be the right decision for you. I'm just trying to reassure you that if you are, the sheer panic will pass!

It sounds like you’ve gone through an incredible amount. While it may help you some to think about it now, it also sounds like maybe it will make you feel worse to try to figure out what you want before you know if you’re pregnant. It might be best to wait until you see if you are or not, and how you feel then. Maybe you’ll find that when the time comes, you actually feel incredibly disappointed that you’re not, and that may be an answer. Or maybe you’ll find that you feel incredibly relieved if you’re not. If you are pregnant, you’ll still have time to think about how you feel before you have to make a decision (if you want to consider termination), so you don’t have to decide the day you find out.

It’s okay to be torn. But remember: you are the ideal person and the only person who can make the right decision for you. Good luck, and hope whatever the outcome is that it goes well.

I'm 7dpo today. Period due next Thursday, and actually the closer I get the more I find myself hoping for a positive result. I feel so conflicted.

@blaisealex

I'm 7dpo today. Period due next Thursday, and actually the closer I get the more I find myself hoping for a positive result. I feel so conflicted.

OP, you cannot control or change this now so just test in a couple of days and decide how you feel then - you'll know when you see either result how you truly feel.

If you're moving between hoping for a positive and then hoping it's not, I would be inclined to think that you maybe don't want to get your hopes up but equally don't want to possibly go through a miscarriage again. Just a few more days so hang on in there

Have done a FRER today. I'm either 9 or 10 dpo. Was negative. So I assume that's that then as it says you can test 6 days before your period is due. Although, I think my pee was quite diluted when I did it. Hmm.

I think you are hoping for BFP OP you are just trying to protect yourself with everything you’ve been through which is so understandable. I have everything crossed for you. Xx

@blaisealex

Have done a FRER today. I'm either 9 or 10 dpo. Was negative. So I assume that's that then as it says you can test 6 days before your period is due. Although, I think my pee was quite diluted when I did it. Hmm.

I was 14dpo before I got a BFP. And I was negative up to that. Currently 40+2wks.

Do a frer on Monday, first thing. You'll get your answer either way then