I’m struggling at the moment, I’m t1 diabetic and - if you or anyone close to you is also t1 you’ll know this - and it is never really ‘under control.’ It has periods of time when it’s easier and periods of time when it’s harder but it requires a HUGE amount of work and input to keep it on an even keel and it affected by many other external factors.
One of my factors is stress. Stress makes me insulin resistant in the day followed by a huge drop in the evening when the stress hormones drop. It’s a joy. It makes stressful times even more stressful because it means I don’t sleep and I don’t feel very well a lot of the time.
At the moment I am stressed at work and also around a family situation. My sugars are responding accordingly by being a total nightmare.
Dh is doing nothing to help. Absolutely nothing.
I am up in the night several times checking my sugars. I am not eating very well because I’m high in the day. I am shattered. Last night my sugar dropped again and I treated it and then it went high. 11pm last night I was so tired that I stood in the kitchen and wept. Dh came in to get himself a glass of water before he went to bed and I said to him I’m really struggling. I’ve got a meeting in the morning at 8.30. I’ve got to get both dc up and dropped to breakfast clubs by 8am and I’m so tired.
This morning - as usual - I was up at 6am, I’ve sorted both dc, I’m about to take the first one to school and then come back for the second and take them to school for 8am before going to my meeting. Dh has not moved. This is normal. He gets up about 8.30 and I do the mornings 5 days a week. And the pick ups. 5 days a week. I fit it around work, some days they go to after school club, some days I go and grab them and then come back and finish working.
I am so fed up. I am so tired. I just want to moan really. And I’m angry.