19w pregnant and I feel so angry all the time

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I'm 19w with my second child. My son is 3.5y and mostly very good but he does have his moments. Today has been one of those days where I feel like everything has really pushed me, and I feel like a coiled spring ready to explode.

DS woke early, then went back to sleep (but I didn't) then I had him up and out of the house early to get our click&collect shopping before my friend came over. Cue him being difficult about getting up early, getting dressed, getting in the car, not being able to hold his box of cereal (I was already driving by this point) me saying no to him opening his window, traffic jam. Got home with 10 mins before friends arrival and mad dash to get shopping away / paddling pool out / garden de-pooed (dog) / tidy / my hair looking reasonable. Then DS refused to wear swimwear in case it got wet... :| then he fussed about suncream, then dog was sick.

My friend and her child came round for 2h and everything was mostly ok my DS was moody and annoying and clingy for some of it, I felt knackered.

Since they left he has been pestering me to play, but I was so tired I put monsters inc on for him instead (guilt guilt guilt) I fell asleep for 5mins and woke to being him in the face with a stuffed crocodile pelted across the room. Tried to do a jigsaw with DS, he didn't give a shit and sitting on the floor killed my back. DH home at 5.30, I make tea, then we both take DS to bed. Tidied garden.

I'm finally sat down with some time to myself and I just feel wrecked. This is just a normal day but I feel so tired and so grumpy all the time. I feel fed up with my life. I feel like I just spend all day doing things that I don't want to do and I can feel my temper getting out of control - I shouted at DS today at a number of occasions and I never wanted to be a shouty mum. I'm worried what I will be like once new baby arrives.

Idk what I want to get out of making this thread really, but I really dislike the person I am right now.

Yeah it’s normal. Three year olds are hard work and so is being pregnant in the heat. I’m 17 weeks and don’t feel much better 🤣 you’ve had a bad day. Draw a line under it, tomorrow is a new one! Do you ever get a break? An hour to yourself?

@Iloveyou3x Thanks for replying. After I read my post back I thought... this sounds like regular mum life.

I get Wednesdays 9-2 to myself as DS goes to nursery, problem is I spend the whole time mowing grass/tidying / catching up with laundry / doing DIY / decluttering etc.

I'm so sorry you feel this way. I do agree, take some time just for you. Do you have a supportive friend/relative who'd help you out a little bit, or money to throw at the laundry/DIY? Even just to get a big pre-baby clean up and then you can chill and enjoy the rest of your pregnancy.

Oh my gosh, you need to spend a Wednesday SITTING DOWN! trust me you’ll be a much nicer mom for it!

I honestly hated being a mum when my son was 3. He was so difficult. It was like he turned into the devil overnight.

He's 5 now and is much easier. I hope it's the same for you.

@Wrotten No one warns you about 3 year olds, the emphasis is always on terrible twos. My son was a lovely 2 year old but I must admit I am not enjoying age 3 much! By the time new baby comes he will be almost 4, so I'm hoping things won't feel so hard with him.

I would love to sit around and relax all day but unfortunately I am not that kind of person, lots of things in my house need sorting and will bother me if I leave. I can only ever relax away from the house. Perhaps I need a holiday!

I look back on being pregnant with my second and think in retrospect how young my first was.

That isn’t to make you feel bad - just that I wish I had picked my battles (stuff like holding the cereal box or wearing swimwear) but also just remembered that I was pregnant and knackered but he was little and I was his Mum so he of course wanted my attention.

I know it is HARD but try if you can to slow the pace down so you can take the pressure off both you and your son.

Finally - what you are doing is hard and exhausting. Don’t be hard on yourself!