I didn't know where to post this. But this is more of a rant and need to get it out, so thanks to those who read. I know people may feel the same others might not.
I feel like life is a battle of exhaustion of work, family and friends, I'm the one people rely on or come to for even for common sense things . I work full time just to afford the bills and food shopping. I can rarely treat myself unless I save. People never come to see me even before covid but ill always make the effort to see them but on my terms no one bothers. I try to keep hopeful I'll either find a cheaper place to live/higher paying job. But all I think is this will be it for the rest of my life. A cycle of working long hours for that to be paid to someone else, all that time and effort into a job that gets thrown away really. I don't want to sound ungrateful but I honestly feel like I've been given a life I didn't want. My father died and my mother was neglectful so I cut ties with her, why have a child to then not bother then expect me to help her with money etc because 'you wouldn't be here if it wasn't for me' that was her choice. I don't want a pity party I just want a life where I can be on my own never have to see anyone