To want to eat half my body weight

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In whatever I can find in the house as today has been a proper shitty day!

Bit of background. Mum had a heart attack a few weeks ago. Then found out Dad maybe has lung cancer and that has now been confirmed. 2 visits to A&E myself last week as Asthma decided to join the party. 10 rounds of nebulisation later sent home pending more tests (maybe have something called rheumatoid arthritis lungs). Just about recovering myself then little one last complains of tooth ache. Long convo with 111 & 2 hrs later were in an emergency dentist getting a temporary filling for him as it lookslike the tooth needs extracting (ever so grateful they found an emergency dentist though).

Got home decided to bung a pizza in the oven for eveyone as I have no energy to cook anything (I know terrible person). Somehow a plastic spatula found it's way inside so yes I smoked the whole house out. Fire Alarm blazing everywhere!!! Unfortunately inhaled some of the smoke and coughed my lungs up in the process! At least the pizza survived. Kids, mum n dad are in front of telly with food.

I just feel emotionally burned out now. So I have raided the goodies cupboard of all chocolates, crisps & cookies etc and locked myself in my room.

AIBU to throw a pitty party for one???

I managed not to binge eat & today I'm opposite not hungry at all. Mind is still racing though 😞

Not BU at all OP. I would do exactly the same! That sounds like an awful lot you are dealing with, I'm so sorry about your parents Hope you're ok and have support? Eat all the cake if you need to and ne kind to yourself, you're going through a very tough time.

you are having the toughest time of your life, do what ever you need to do to get through x

Thank you both for kind words. Back in A&E tonight with dad looks like a mild heart attack. More freakishly he is being treated by the same Dr I had at my last visit and in the same room! Dr recognised me aswell 🙈

I feel exhausted & drained so pretty sure once I get home & after school run cos I'm sure we won't get home till then I will be eating a lot of comfort food 😔

Oh you poor thing, that's a lot to deal with, very sad.
Look after yourself and yes you do deserve to binge eat as it can give comfort, have you any support from other family members or friends?
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