To be absolutely fed up

[CanIbeRio]

My life:-
Bullied badly as a child
Flashed at and followed by a pervert aged 11
Sexually assaulted by my GP aged 17
Burgled 3 times and every piece of sentimental jewellery taken including engagement ring
Emergence of back pain and unpredictable back spasms at age 14....no diagnosis and still ongoing 30+ years on and getting worse.....
Resulting in me not being able to return to work after having dd causing tension for financial reasons for a long spell in my marriage (now ok)
Dreadful teenage dd issues for 4 years...full of hate, mood and lately severely unpredictable behaviour causing mega stress
DB bi polar
DDad has dementia
DM struggling to deal with Ddad dementia and also has severe health issues . I'm doing everything as DB is hands off
I have a lot to be thankful for...but jeez 'm SO fed up....all this baggage depresses me and weighs me down. No point to my rant, just needed to write it down. 😔

be kind to yourself. Someone once said to me I needed to RESPECT that I was in a difficult situation and juggling a lot of balls and it hit a nerve. Deep breaths.

You’ve been through hell and back cut yourself some slack. I have no advice but you’ve had enough shit for a life time and I hope things get better!