Anyone else afraid to be alone with their thoughts?

[Tinkyroo]

Posting here mainly for traffic.
I’ve realised recently that I am afraid to be alone with my thoughts. I try to keep busy with the kids, work etc but on the days they are with my ex or if I’m off and they’re at school, I find myself highly anxious and try to not let myself think too much.
My thoughts aren’t anything extremely worrying but more just sad/unhappy thoughts- about my recent break up, about my future as a single mother, about the derails of my exes affair. I tend to feel very sorry for myself.
I don’t know how to work through this feelings as I tend to bury my head rather than address them head on.
I think I was always a bit like this but definitely more so since we separated.

It's early days for you yet OP, so it's to be expected. Perhaps a bit of counselling may be good for you if you've always felt this way. I usually find a good walk helps me if I feel troubled, or I put the radio on & listen to a bit of music

I have the radio on (mostly R4 or something other speech channel) during pretty much all my waking hours, unless I have to concentrate on work stuff. Otherwise I very quickly slip into a misery spiral.

As regards how you're feeling about your current situation - one of the things I've found preferable since becoming an adult is that I know even the most painful emotions will eventually dissipate, though the process may be slow. It is entirely natural to feel bad when things go wrong, and to fear a future that isn't the one you'd planned - but it's highly likely that you will not always feel like this.