To think there is something wrong with me mentally?

[NutshellInAHole]

I can’t go into details but I have a lot going on right now, son is in prison for a start, there are other things going on that I can’t talk about on here then the first lockdown happened and I’ve felt like I’ve been losing my mind a little ever since. I don’t sleep, I don’t socialise, I barely function at work (auto pilot) come home and sit on the sofa. I’m having horrible dreams, always wake up at 3am, I’ve put on so much weight none of my clothes fit me. I’ve lost all interest in everything. I spend my life sat on the sofa watching YouTube videos.
Yesterday I got referred to gynae to rule out cancer and although it’s unlikely I feel it’s pushed me over the edge. Today I feel completely numb. I had to go out to take the dog out and whilst walking there was a rumbling noise in the sky. My immediate thought was aliens or a meteorite and I started to feel like we were all about to die. My dog picked up on this and started freaking out too. Now I’m home I realise how ridiculous that was, it was clearly an aeroplane but why did I jump to such a daft and dramatic conclusion?
I really think I’m losing it.

Your GP can help you

This is understandable, you are under a lot of stress, life just isn't being kind to you at the moment. Anxiety is a dreadful thing, it just creeps up on you. You won't cope with any of it unless you can regulate your sleep. Small changes, one thing at a time. Can you step away from Youtube for a little bit each day and go for a walk, even if it's just round the block, fresh air, feed the ducks.

It sounds like you should speak to your doctor
Take care

Couldn't read and run. GO and see your GP as it sounds as if you need some help. I hope yours is a lovely as mine was when I needed help as I was overwhelmed with everything on my plate as it sounds to me as if you have far too much on yours.

Speak to your GP, with a little support, you have a rosier future ahead of you.

You've got a lot to contend with, bit could you also be in peri-menopause? Peri can cause massive issues with anxiety, weight, exhaustion, insomnia, brain fog, the list goes on and on. I'm so sorry you're feeling so awful.

You might find talking with a gp really useful to get you started finding answers that work for you you're dealing with a lot right now.

You just sound incredibly stressed

Try not to panic OP. What you have been going through has probably built up in your mind and it can play tricks on you. It doesn't mean there is anything wrong with you, but it does sound as though you are under a lot of stress. I think you should make an appointment with you GP and try and take steps to do little things to decrease your stress levels.

I had to go out to take the dog out and whilst walking there was a rumbling noise in the sky. My immediate thought was aliens or a meteorite and I started to feel like we were all about to die. My dog picked up on this and started freaking out too. Now I’m home I realise how ridiculous that was, it was clearly an aeroplane but why did I jump to such a daft and dramatic conclusion?

Because when we feel low we jump to the most negative of conclusions no matter how unlikely they are. Our mind is in such a negative frame we assume the worst. Like if I make a small mistake at work, I catastrophise it to it's inevitable conclusion - I will get sacked, I won't be able to pay my mortgage, I will have to commit suicide.

Don't worry about it, it's normal. That doesn't mean don't do anything about it though, you should speak to your doctor as soon as possible. You may benefit from talking therapy, a lot of people do.

Please see your doctor for advice, this sounds like generalised anxiety disorder. All the best and hope things get better for you very soon x

Don’t beat yourself up. You’re clearly under a lot of stress and stress has massive impacts on is physically and mentally. Especially long term ongoing stress which sounds like your under. Do you have any support? Would you consider going to the GP or seeing about some therapy?