Pregnancy - the gift that just keeps bloody giving

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Just sitting here reflecting on how tough it is - and I feel like your just not allowed to talk about it. Don't get me wrong I have an absolutely beautiful DS that I couldn't be more ecstatic to be a mummy too - but I am just bloody done!
From week 5 I had debilitating morning sickness - had to take medication while working full time and looking after a toddler. I literally couldn't lift my head off the pillow. Then the body changes, the worry & anxiety, the constant aches and pains, need to wee etc.
I just didn't enjoy any of it.
Fast forward to my second traumatic birth which ended in a C section, the recovery, the breast feeding which has been a battle, physically and mentally, which has lead to baby not gaining Weight and moving to formula.
Now my boobs feel like they are going to explode, I can't shower because of the pain while I wait for my milk to dry up and to top it all off, I've now got period pains and am awaiting the mother of all mensural cycles.
Tomorrow I have my 6 week check and my doctor wants to talk about contraception.
It's just one big head fuck, and I don't think it's talked about enough how it zaps your life away for nearly a year, and now I'm desperate to find myself again but my body feels like a deflated balloon and I just don't know where to begin!
Genuinely lovely my baby to pieces and feel mentally fine - just reflecting on the hammering I've had this year and feel like I'm ready to get off this bloody Merry go round.
Hats off to those women that keep going and have lots of children, maybe I'm just a martyr 🤣

Did anyone else get huge genitals towards the end?! Huge. No one mentioned that to me.

All the mum friends I’ve spoken to have been sympathetic but shared they didn’t really suffer with any sickness. It’s quite stigmatised - when I am lucky to be having a baby

I hated the 'but you should be happy, this is what you wanted' comments. I did not want to be cripplingly nauseous from pretty much day one of pregnancy progressing to barely being able to keep anything down and spending every waking hour planning when to eat or drink and how much to eat or drink. And then people would suggest ginger sodding biscuits or mint tea.

I worked through it as well because my GP treated me as if I was making a fuss about nothing and was just being awkward while the midwife seemed confused by my levels of sickness and was more concerned that I was drinking fizzy drinks than about my drastic weight loss.

I'm still furious about it when I remember.

www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2021/may/18/parent-trap-why-the-cult-of-the-perfect-mother-has-to-end?CMP=Share_AndroidApp_Other

And still, trying to get a GP to listen is a fucking nightmare.

Yes - my experience was that they really don’t give a shit about anything postnatal-related!

Yep @sapnupuas on two sorts - Odansetron and Metoclopramide after cyclizine didn’t work. They’re not really touching it to be honest, my GP has been good and referred me to the hospital for an IV but after being told they didn’t have my referral ( I heard the GP on the phone to the on call registrar) and waiting for 2.5hrs in the ‘day room’ trying not to vomit in front of mums and babies - and the nurses coming in to microwave their dinner - I gave up and came home.

It’s a real eye opener isn’t it @GrolliffetheDragon - baby was a happy but very unexpected surprise so I think the shock has compounded it all a bit

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It’s a real eye opener isn’t it *@GrolliffetheDragon* - baby was a happy but very unexpected surprise so I think the shock has compounded it all a bit

The next shock is how quickly the time goes. I swear, you blink and they're suddenly starting school!

Oh I feel you. I'm currently taking Ondansetron after trying everything else. It takes the edge off, but doesn't completely. I'm almost 15 weeks so I hope my placenta takes over soon!

And that's exactly why I refused to go to hospital this time. It's hell.

I hope you feel better soon.

I left a gap of 4 years. You do sort of forget then get a stark reminder lol

32 weeks pregnant with twins, I feel like I'm the soze of a sodding house with a bowling ball between my legs. Never out of the hospital for check ups. Gestational diabetes, reflux, heartburn, pgp, itchy bump, piles, carple tunnel... yet I'm supposed to be enjoying it?! Fuck off.

Where's the glow?

Hi there,

I saw a post on here where Plymouth University are looking for people with pelvic pain for a new research study; may be worth looking at:

www.plymouth.ac.uk/research/emapp-trial

Sounds tough on you hun.

My GP booked me in for infertility testing this morning. I have to ring the surgery on day 21 on my cycle to get all sorts of blood tests done, then hubby has to provide a sperm sample, and I'm going for an ultrasound pelvic scan. Oh well!

It’s horrendous and oh so shit but I want more babies😂😂😂

I have two very much wanted children but if I could erase the pregnancy bit!!
First was a surprise pregnancy (as in was highly unlikely to get pregnant) but was sick or nausea constantly, it was I’d rather be sick than tolerate the nausea. I was so tired and life just stopped between head down a toilet, to asleep & visit to the hospital for drips. Couldn’t stand the smells of most things toast, coffee, shampoo (still can’t use certain brands because of the memory’s it triggers) even my GP when I went in for my check up couldn’t believe I’d got to the other side…

I soo wanted to be pregnant but I never glowed or had a chance to enjoy it :(

2nd time I wasn’t even brave enough to start trying till eldest was 3…it then took nearly 4 years to get pregnant - & I knew I was pregnant before I peeed on a stick the smell of coffee made me throw up instantly. Repeat of the first sickness , hospital stays and sleeping. For nine months.

I so wanted a big family but my husband could not see me go through another pregnancy (very stressful for all) & due to my fertility issues the stress of disappointment.

I’ve just remembered the heartburn - I was drinking gaviscon like it was a juice bottle didn’t bloody work either.

I am ever so grateful for my girls but not the being pregnant.