I really need some perspective with a dilemma I am facing, it's mum guilt more than anything but here goes
Dh works full time Monday-friday , I work full time Thursday, Friday , Saturday, Sunday
This means me and DH never get a day off together, he is main parent at the weekend whilst I work and DD 2 currently goes nursery Thursday/ Friday whilst we both work and is at home with me Monday Tuesday Wednesday
It's not an ideal set up as hardly see DH but with no family to ask to help with childcare it was the only way we could avoid huge nursery bill, currently paying 100 per week for 2 days nursery
Anyway it's not forever and when DD goes to school my employer has already said can go back mid week
My AIBU is that I feel like I never get anytime to myself, DH works a long day and is exhausted and he comes homes from a physical demanding job (structural welder lots of heavy lifting ) and is often asleep by ,9pm , I don't begrudge him this at all by the way as he works hard for the family and is a fab daddy and husband
We are entitled to 30 hours free childcare from April next year which means I could put DD in an extra day and it would actually cost us less than it does now , I feel so guilty though as I'm only doing this so I can have one day in the week to myself, I just want one day where I can relax , watch Netflix or whatever , I don't get this now and with DH crashed out most night for 9pm I feel like I can never read a book , watch a film as DD demands my attention constantly
Am I being selfish doing this? Dh said go for it but there is something that makes me feel.gulilty putting DD in nursery when I'm not at work, why do I feel like this ?? Thanks for reading