I feel like I am going insane. Me and my partner are having an argument that I did start, I didn't mean to start it but it was my fault. I told him that the house is a state and I was fed up because he's never here. He is always at work, or helping his family and friends, or doing work mates favours, and I know he is being helpful and I did say I know he's being helpful but sometimes I need him here. I told him I was alone 99% of the time which is true and we have 2 young children and I'm having some health problems at the moment that is making me irritable because I'm in pain and can't do things I used to be able to do. But I tried to explain that it's hard being on my own and I just want some support because I can't do everything. I don't know what's wrong with me I know single parents have to do everything and they cope but I can't I'm obviously just a rubbish mum really. But anyway my partner has gone mad at me, he says I need to ask for things more. So I need to ask for help with the flat and to spend time with him and help with the children, but I'm sure I have asked before and it's always 'I'll do it in a while" and it never happens anyway. He says I just don't ask though but now he has broken down in tears saying that he can't cope anymore because I just expect him to know what I want and that I' m a bad partner and I think maybe I am. Everytime I bring up something that I am upset about it always ends up being my fault, I have BPD and maybe I'm not behaving normally. Am I unreasonable to want more support at home - and to be upset about it? Does anyone have any tips on how to balance childcare, housework, part time job and everything else without having a complete mental breakdown because I feel a bit useless at the moment?