Anyone had a nervous breakdown?

[whatisforteamum]

Is anyone willing to tell me their experience as I wonder if I'm having one.
Previously a workaholic then furloughed I was amazed to feel better off work.They're had been some issues and so the relief to be away was great.My MH improved.Then a month ago my anxiety A and mood was dipping ,loss of appetite churning stomach and one the brink of tears not like me in the slightest.
I have CBT online and we returned to work two weeks ago.
My colleagues could see I was subdued.Normally the positive energetic one I faked wanting to be back.All the men seemed to have bonded.Im literally dragging myself in.I can't go sick as I'm zero hrs and they are very disapproving of absence.I have had interviews elsewhere.
I feel like my head will explode.How can I get back to my positive energetic self.
Anyone else been like this and how did you regain confidence?

I worked with a lady who had one and was sectioned. It’s basically being unable to function any more and can be really bad with hallucinations etc. She thought she was a bird and could fly they day took her in, she also laughed manically at random moments.

Maybe you need to go back to your gp for further help?

At the risk of armchair diagnosing, it sounds more like regular depression than a nervous breakdown, but you really ought to go back to your doctor.

I think there's a wider set of words used these days to describe similar sorts of experiences. Burn out, rust out, mid life crisis, people leaving their job because it has become a great source distress. What "qualifies" as a nervous breakdown or not is less important than the fact that you've recognised something needs to change.

There was a burn out thread on AIBU recently that you might relate to. For me personally, CBT was not the right fit, I needed to go to counselling.

Oh yes and GP as @MaskingForIt said. Depression doesn't always fit what you think it should. For me it was an absence of feeling and a slowness rather than sadness.

Interesting thank you all.In my 20s I had what was a bad episode of not caring what happened to me and constant crying.All started with trying to be super slim and buying a house really young and trying to be perfect.Ended up with me threatening suicide.I went into a psychiatric hospital which was so scary I started eating again.
I think this time relief from my punishing workload and realising I learnt new skills for a couple of yrs not to get a pay rise or recognition has been soul destroying.
I do feel a job change would solve a lot and renew my energy. I've had an interview this week.
So weird to crash from the positive head of the family and very positive worker into someone struggling so much.

Feelinhappy yes I wonder if counselling would be better.
A yr of bottling things up has been hard.thank heavens for Mnet.

Yes I've had one, it started off like that and then progressed to psychosis and hallucinations.
I see a psychiatrist once a week and take medication.
Luckily work (NHS) is very supportive and I was diagnosed with complex PTSD.

Ive had issues with anxiety and depression all my life. My mother before me used to have what we called her "wobblers" and which we now recognize as panic attacks. I dont think she ever really recovered from going through the blitz when she was a young woman.

My father has a bad temper and I was often beaten as a child so I dont think that helped.

I can remember telling my then GP how I felt and he described it as "endogenous depression" which Ive since looked up on the internet.

Despite these disabilities I have managed to have 2 rewarding careers and a very successful return to education in mid life when I achieved one degree after another.

In the past I must have taken every medication known to man and CBT as well. None of it really helped. I have come to the conclusion that no one can really help me other than myself. I need something to focus on and a reason to get out of bed in the morning. I am now in my mid 70s and still have panic attacks and episodes where I feel like killing myself. I now run a internet based business and just focus on providing a good service to my customers.

Shehasadiamondinthesky i hope you are better now.my dsis had hallucinations when df died.😪
Memberofthewedding sounds like you have done amazingly well despite your struggles.
I too need something bigger than myself to leap out of bed for hence previously being workaholic.
I guess I need to reset my inner compass.

I had one, was constantly on the edge of tears or shouting, intrusive thoughts of self harm, couldn't focus on anything or pull myself so couldn't get out of bed to look after the kids. Anti depressants and a couple of weeks off work while they kicked in made a huge difference.

I've just been offered another job! This could be the change and focus I need.New people less pressure and above all no more back handed bullying.
Obviously it could backfire on me but I have a months notice to give so I can get my head straight before I start.Also the whiteness should stop once the youngsters realise they can have my job.😊