Do I need some help?

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Hi. I've lost someone who I was very close with to suicide over a month ago. I'm not close to the persons friends or family so maybe havnt been able to grieve 'normally'.
I'm feeling empty,heartbroken, regretful, angry, guilty, I feel so much love for him which is probably what hurts most. I'm not interested in anything, not even my child who has always been my source of joy. I'm normally a happy person who is positive, but now I dread each day. I don't want the next day to come. And I can't see any point in life anymore.
Do I need to make an appointment at the doctor? Or is this a normal way to feel? I think that people around me are concerned but I can't imagine how I could feel any other way than I do now.

Who is to say what's normal? Book an appointment and talk it over
I'm very sorry for your loss, what a terrible shock for every

Do I need to make an appointment at the doctor? Or is this a normal way to feel?

It's not an either/or - it is a normal way to feel, but also the sort of thing you should speak to your doctor about. I get the feeling you need counselling/talking therapy and contacting the doctor is the best way to get this put into motion.

You could also ring the Samaritans, they're there to help in the immediate term if you feel you can't talk to anyone else about this.

I guess the only advice I can give you is try to remember that
a) it's not your fault
b) the person you have lost would not want you to feel bad.

Thank you. I know there is no norm to grieving. And I think that the cause of the death makes things even more strange and people around me don't really know what to say.
I guess I'm just not sure if the way I'm feeling is acceptable or if my friends are right to be worried. It's the not wanting the next day to come that is concerning them.

I hardly go to the doctor, and never for anything like this. What would I say?