Because of mental ill health, and then Covid, I haven’t seen a single friend since May 2019 .
I’ve seen my mum, my sister twice since Feb last year, my grandmother, one aunt .
That’s it .
Most friends work for the NHS or have kids and so don’t want visitors just in case . Wider family aren’t very close and we wouldn’t normally meet up anyway . We don’t have any beer gardens anywhere near, lovely beach but it’s a rare day that it’s not bloody freezing .
I‘m a student but of course that’s all done over zoom so no chance to get to know anyone .
I used to see GP four-six weekly for severe mental health; haven’t seen her since Jan 2020 - all just phone calls . I live with my mother just now so no privacy, I can’t talk openly as she will hear . I’ve never missed something so much as that chance to talk in total confidence behind a closed door .
Having counselling - again, all over the phone from home, which is horrendously difficult and again, don’t feel I can talk properly as my mum will hear and ask questions.
Live in the sodding countryside too and I’m a non driver so screwed in terms of getting anywhere quickly .
I’m so bloody lonely now . The internet, email and WhatsApp only go so far . It’s horrible . Endless afternoons watching ITV daytime and going for sodding short walks . And they keep saying on TV - meet up with six others - what if you don’t have even one? Then what do you do?