To be lonely?

[sausageisassausagedoes]

I love living alone! I love my (normal, non lockdown) life! I've made it through over a year of lockdowns and been absolutely fine, BUT, all of a sudden I'm not.
And I feel so strange, because everything's opening up again, so I'm like, why now?
AIBU to be falling at the final hurdle?

I think sometimes we can keep it together when we have to, and the second the pressure comes off, we break down, I come down with a bad cold or stomach upset every time I finish a major project.

Plus I think some rather lonely people found lockdown easier because it isolated everyone. They’re struggling now because their non-lockdown life isn’t a riot of friends and parties.