I'm homesick, but couldn't really go back home to where I'm from. Anyone else?

[Longingforthepast]

As the years have passed, I really miss the place I'm from. But have no family there anymore, and things will have changed a lot over the past decade/ 15 years.

The mad thing is I couldn't really live there anyway! I moved for jobs and various opportunities. And because (at the time) although very fond of the place in one way, didn't feel like I was a great fit for the lifestyle there.

But I feel so nostalgic and wish I could go back, when family members were still alive and I sort of took for granted id always be welcome

I feel so sad today. Even though I also love the country I live in now!

Does anyone else have a bit of a complicated relationship with the place they grew up? Where you have mixed feelings?

@kwiksavenofrillsusername

This totally resonates! I know who lives in which houses, even if I don’t know them, you just get used to certain people and families and you know the connections.

And I agree, not sure if ever be happy living there again.

So I end up feeling a bit disloyal to the people and the place like I’ve rejected it and them.

In a way I wish I longed to go back, it would make it clearer for me... but I don’t.., yet I miss it.., yet I don’t.... so odd.