Stupid urge to cancel

[GeekyGirl42]

Dating a really lovely woman. Mostly been online because of covid, but meeting her for a second date tomorrow. Because of her family responsibilities the exact time is not fixed yet and I'm not hearing from her like I usually would today for the same reason. Intellectually this is fine.

This is sending my usually unreasonable level of anxiety sky high. I am fighting every urge to just drop her a line saying "I'm so sorry, I can't make tomorrow. Let's reschedule", or worse, just run away completely.

If I don't, I am going to really hate waiting for her to confirm the time tomorrow.

Hate my brain.

Just give her this one day, allow yourself to stress but don't cancel. You don't know how good this relationship could be and you'll never find out if you don't try. Just one day, you can do that

As you say she's a lovely woman - if you cancel the odds are you'll kick yourself for doing so then go on another spiral down your anxiety. Try to busy yourself and don't act based on your current levels of anxiety. Deep breaths and remember it's early days so don't mix up the butterfly feelings with your anxiety.

I got a bit anxious earlier and reached out to her - was because I was worried that the plan we made would mean she'd end up waiting around too much. Beating myself up about this. All I did is try to call and later on had a brief text exchange with her. So silly, I doubt very much this was a problem but that doesn't stop the silly nagging voice.