Feeling depressed - AIBU

[Feelingbad2]

Name changed for this because I feel so awful.

I have a history of PND and anxiety. Haven’t felt depressed for years though. I take a substantial dose of Citalopram for my anxiety and as such I feel it is really under control. However I seem to feel depressed and I’m surprised about how it has crept up on me and frustrated that I shouldn’t feel like this because I am on an antidepressant!

I would quite happily stay in bed all day if I could because everything feels such a chore at the moment. I feel like such a bad mum, I haven’t got the energy or patience to play little role play games that he wants me to play with him and his cars, knights or dinosaurs. I’m terrible round the house. I just feel like I’m not good enough. All I look forward to at the moment is the evening when I can lose myself in some shite on tv. I also feel bad for going on my phone a lot.

Hi OP you can't help the way you feel. I'm on SSRIs as well and although they help with the panic attacks and tearfulness, I still can feel low 'underneath' it iyswim, so I understand.

We've all had such a time of being copped up together as well. Does your DC go to school / nursery?

Yes he does go to nursery, he starts school in September. We have been to the park today and I find it easier to play with him when we are out and about, but really struggle at home.

I have teenagers too, who always played with each other so weren’t demanding in that sense

I have teenagers too. I think it has been a lot to deal with having them home schooling and dealing with a young one as well.

Maybe give yourself a pat on the back simply getting through recent times and don't be hard on yourself. It's been really tough. Maybe one of your teens might play with him a little? Kind thoughts

Everyone feels pretty fed up right now, I think many of us have become depressed.
Don't be hard on yourself, maybe consider seeing your gp and altering the dose of citalopram?

It may be a good idea to have a meds review. I was on Citalopram for years; it seemed to lose its efficacy.
Switched to Sertraline, which also helps me manage my anxiety.