To be mentally checked out with dp today?

Dunno just dont feel the same today. It could be a one day thing it could not. I posted on here yesterday about my problem but truth is that's one of many. I'm tired, I'm suffering with PTSD I think and OCD intrusive thoughts from birth. All this has lead to abit of pnd. My parents are going through a toxic breakup that has been taking its toll on me, and I guess has me overly sensitive to my own relationship problems. I spent my first easter alone yesterday with dc as I couldnt bare to be in the same house as do. Just really deflated. My body is a mess, periods are on and off since birth which I'm sure isnt helping. Dp called me yesterday with some pathetic apology that wasnt even an apology. I just don't have the energy anymore. Not quite sure what this post is about just feel depressed these past couple years havent been easy (not talking primarily covid reasons) has anyone else had off days with their dp? I just don't want to talk to him or pretend to be happy to his family who we live with. Ugh.