To ask what the hell just happened?

[taintedtrees]

I was washing the breakfast stuff up while the laundry was spinning and a bowl fell off the side. Next thing I know I was sitting on the kitchen floor in floods of tears. What the actual duck? I'm so composed and calm normally. It didn't even break.

How is life generally?

Lock down is affecting people's mental health in so many ways

Things affect us strangely at different times. I remember screaming because I dropped something.

Don't worry about it, it happens.

Op, are you ok,? do you have worries and stresses building in your life and the bowl dropping was the final straw ?

Sometimes a good cry helps get the pent up feelings out

Perhaps it was just a shock OP , a surge of adrenaline is very affecting, especially if you've got underlying emotions you've been sitting on I'd be surprised that they came to the surface.

Or if not, ultimately crying is a very normal response to a fight and flight triggered response, it just means we felt threatened, even if this was brief or doesn't stand up to much on further inspection.

It's not great tbh, COVID has caused a lot of grief in my family.

@taintedtrees
I am so very sorry to hear that covid has caused much grief for you and your family.
It sounds as if you've probably been trying to hold your life together and have not been able to fully grieve..The loud noise from the bowl was just too much for your nervous system and your body took over to handle your grief the way it is supposed to...by letting you cry and releasing all those stress hormones you've been unable to conciously release.
I hope you are feeling better, but please give yourself all the time you need to learn to live with your grief...I didn't say 'get over' your grief because I don't think we ever can fully get over our grief...we just learn to put it in its place.
Know that I am praying for comfort and peace for you and your family.

Stuff can build up in the background whilst you are concentrating on doing everything. Did you feel better after the cry? Or unresolved? Is there someone you can talk to, perhaps a sibling who knows the background?