A bit of background: I came back from maternity leave exactly a year ago. For a variety of reasons (threat of redundancy, sidelining, mobbing) I started looking for another job in a relevant field. But the world went upside down and Covid happened. I have been to five interviews, but didn't get any of the jobs for various reasons (internal candidates, candidates with slightly more experience, etc). The feedback for most of the interviews, however, was glowing and a couple of managers strongly encouraged me to keep trying at the same level.
The truth is, I am exhausted and borderline depressed at this point. I have an almost 2-year-old and when I am not working in my actual job, I am either parenting, job hunting, or preparing for interviews. I spent most of last week putting together a presentation that, despite being excellent for graphics and content, still didn't get me the job.
I feel at crossroads. I would love to move on, but it's just not happening. Perhaps I should give up for the time being and focus on other things? I have considered getting pregnant again and giving my daughter a sibling, but part of me worries that I will never bounce back if I do that (one year of maternity leave, two of pandemic, and another maternity leave...)
Really torn and depressed :(