Police report not worth it?

[Hatethepatriarchy]

NC. I’m in a vulnerable state to be honest. A very short summary of recent events. ExDP finished things 3 weeks ago to get back with his ex. He kicked me out of our home as it was in his name. Over the past 6 months he became increasingly threatening, intimidating, he’s an alcoholic, anger issues, history of violence. You get the picture.

I’m only recently realising how bad it has been. But basically him and his new/old gf are trying to create a narrative that i just can’t let things go, I’m crazy and he’s threatening police involvement claiming he’ll use my poor mental health against me. (I had a suicide attempt 2 weeks ago).

I want to speak to the police first. To show them the pictures of the doors he broke down, tell them about the threats to kill my family, hurt me, the times he’s pushed me, threatened my pets. But I wouldn’t want to take it further because it’ll be a battle of him using my MH against me.

It’s not worth it is it? Why is it so hard for us to challenge abuse. Because I doubt myself on what actually happened every day and I know deep down I shouldn’t.

It absolutely is worth it, please do go ahead and call the police. Each force has their own policies but i know mine wouldnt shrug their shoulders and not bother. No it wont get an immediate response, your safe from harm and its not ongoing but someone will listen.

I'm so sorry to hear what you've been through.

I'm a police officer. One of the first questions we'll ask is what do you want us to do? If you say well I don't want to pursue this or go to court there is nothing that can be done. So have a good think about why you want to discuss it with police if that's how you feel. There isn't anything else we can do unless you want him dealing with in a criminal way. We are there to investigate crimes after all.

If I was your attending officer know that I give my all to my victims trying to get positive outcomes for them. To the detriment of my own family and own health, every single day.

I spoke to the police on Facebook messenger and they said I could report online. I may do that. My ex still has a lot of my possessions that I can’t put anywhere right now so I don’t want to rock the boat.

I also don’t want a he said, she said situation where everything I say happened is just hear say

Well exactly. You can report it. But look into it first what it is you actually want to report and only do it if you want to proceed, if not I think you'll be disappointed with the response becasue as I'm sure you know it isn't Easy to get a prosecution. It takes time and effort and it will also be raw for you having to provide your statement as evidence etc. So be ready for that.
I don't mean to belittle your experience in any way. But in your opening post you said you didn't want to go through with it, so I seriously question why you'd bother reporting in the first place?

Just try, as hard as it is to forget about him. Your mental health is so much more important then him, even though he's been exacerbating it' all.

Also I never knew you could speak to the police on messenger!