Have you ever been played by a man big time? Or had your heart broken because they dropped you so suddenly?
I was chucked 6 days ago by someone who I realise now was a mess. I decided to give him a chance even though he was in the first year of alcohol recovery after a suicide attempt! I didn't really realise how much of a bad idea that was as I knew nothing about addiction recovery. But you live and learn. .
He did all the things to make me feel like his world. Lovely messages. Presents. Telling me he loved me. Plans for the future. Keen to take me on with two small children. He used to talk about teaching me to drive and helping me do a course. He also told me he would spend everyday making sure I know how beautiful and special I am. Apparently he just wanted me to feel confident and happy everyday.
Full of charm right???
In return I sat up all night sometimes worrying about him. I listened to him on his depressed days. I complimented him. Got him doing a food shop online each week and was encouraging him to care for himself (looking back now it sounds pathetic) but he is still prone to feeling worthless.
Anyway after lending him money. Sending him little gifts on his down days. all the sexual stuff. He decided last week when I asked him a simple question I wasn't worth it anymore. He completely chucked me out his life 100%
Decided today to hold out the olive branch (I know I'm a mug) asked him if he was ok. He put I'm fine thanks. I asked him if he wanted to be friends (I know how alone he is and yes I still miss him and this is hard) he put up to you I'm not an ogre.
I said I have missed speaking to you have you missed me at all. He put No.
So I blocked him at that point. I thought stuff this that speaks volumes.
Currently feel a complete idiot but going over everything in my head there's millions of things now that point towards him being unable to be normal in relationships.
I thought it might help me feel better if some of you share your regrets on relationships where you got hurt?
Tia. (Don't need telling I'm stupid, but would like to hear from others who have been here)