To think I should give up alcohol for this reason?

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I only drink once every couple of weeks but I do a good bottle and a half of wine in that one sitting when my DD is at her dads. I've always looked at it as a way of relaxation when she's away but I have no problem going in between then or missing it if I have plans etc.

However, no matter what, whenever I drink I always wake up in the morning having sent some type of embarrassing message to people, whether that's a really over the top lovey message, an angry message, contacting people from my past or sexting with some random person I've never met. I wake up the next day and feel so embarrassed but I try and just push it out of my head.

I feel I can't walk around my town without being a laughing stock as I worry if people talk about me and the messages. I worry that people from my past are thinking how pathetic I am and believe that because I've reached out to them I've not moved on with my own life.

I'm generally very happy with my life and am 'normal' otherwise. I just turn into this different person when drunk.

Would you quit if you were acting like this?

It depends, I’d probably just put my phone away. I do get the beer fear the next day and check social media but generally am an eloquent drunk. I often take things for free on fb though..... unlike a friend who ordered two Christmas polar bears that were enormous!

I gave up drinking wine and spirits for this reason. I couldn't handle the anxiety and low mood that stayed with me after a night of drinking. With me I'd either said something in person to someone that I wish I hadn't, usually mean or cheeky or I'd send overly lovey messages to friends when I'm never like that sober.

If this is happening often esp the angry ones to people from your past you might need to address why you can't let go of whatever happened back then.

Now when I do drink, which is very occasionally, I stick to a couple of ciders and nothing stronger.

It does sound like you get too drunk. Maybe only have the one bottle in the house so when it's gone, it really has gone.

It does sound like you are getting a bit more drunk than you can handle, but it also sounds like you are bottling a lot of things up maybe? Or it could be that you are lonely and these messages are a way to try and spark some attention? The booze is one thing but it's worth trying to understand what's really going on, I only do things like that when I'm unhappy and looking externally for validation.

I gave up drinking wine and spirits for this reason

Likewise, especially wine. I go from zero to turbo way too fast

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