Ive been a mumsnetter for the past two and half years,the worst two and a half years of my life actually and its for this reason i went looking for help online at a time when i had no one.
I was so lost,depressed beyond my control,suicide was always at the forefront of my thoughts
I came online and shared so many times the thoughts of my muddled hurt mind,each and every time i was given such patience,care and understanding and compassion from you strangers sitting on the other end of your screens.Im still not through everything thats hard in my life, but ive gotten stronger and have built some resilience and become a better coper and i can honestly attribute that to the posters on this site who pulled me through when i had no one.I was so many times a person who was going to be a suicide stastic parent of a severely disabled child.
I see people so often on this site writing to say they are feeling these levels of despair ,especially now,i just want to say please please hold on,slowly and eventually things do change,nothing remains forever,please dont get overwhelmed, talk to the good people on this site,reach out,think of me saying this,ive been stood at the edge of a bridge and taken far to many pills to get off this world,but ultimately im glad i stayed.
To all of you who helped me by sharing kind words, lots of helpful advice,saying im not alone and saying that youd share my burden if you could,im so so thankful to you,im here because of you.THANK YOU.