To be dreading school run

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I'm in that place of dread where I just can't face seeing people. Women that have made it really clear we're not friends since before the last lockdown. I hate all the fakery and small talk. As much as I am pleased kids are going back I'm dreading being alone all day again. I feel trapped and alone and depressed and overwhelmed with my child's recent SEN diagnosis. I can't stop crying about everything. I don't even know what it is that I'm upset about... aibu? Do I need to just cheer the heck up???

a diagnosis can nock the stuffing out of you and make you feel quite out of sorts and easily upset.

You don’t need to be friends with these women. You’re just there to drop/pick up your kid.

Have you got proper friends you can spend time with?

I think you are just a bit shcoked, i wouldnt worry aout the women in the school, just arrive bang on time, and leave it to last minute to collect your children, i have no interest in chit chatting with women in my school, im happy with a hello, so ive learned not to dawdle. Hopefully you have friends irl that you can talk to.

I do but not near me. We moved a short while ago and very remote. So new friends are really all acquaintances. I would say I have two real friends here now. I don't make them easily. Not that I suppose anyone does. But am not NT and find it quite challenging to actually keep close friends. I seem to go through them... outwardly I think people think I am ok and know lots of people. Now more than ever I feel very alone whilst also wanting to push everyone away, I feel angry and hurt and worried about my child. The pandemic has really heightened everything, I don't know how to be anymore.

Headphones and music if you don't want to engage dont