Oh OP I could have written this back in September. I feel for you.
I also had a traumatic induced labour with my first a few years ago, and was convinced I would refuse induction in favour of a section for any subsequent children. It took a long time to come to terms with my birth experience.
From someone who’s been there and come out the other side, I will say what everyone said to me (which I didn’t believe) - second labours are usually faster, and there is every chance things will be different this time. Even if you do end up having to be induced.
What really helped me was speaking to a senior midwife from the birth reflection service. It was invaluable and without it I don’t think I could have gone through with another induction. Would this be an option for you?
This time round I waited for two days alone on the induction unit prior to having my waters broken, which was actually fine. Lots of online tv programs, films, and reading. The peace was bliss! The labour was shorter (9 hours vs 36) and I had the vaginal delivery I was aiming for. I was so worried and yet couldn’t have asked for a better outcome.
Hypnobirthing also helped. As a PP said you can go past 42 weeks with expectant management, which I considered but was too risk-averse to go through with.
At the end of the day if you want a section, ask for it. I’d never go through another traumatic induction for any money.
So sorry for the essay. Sending all the virtual hugs 🤗