To, just have had ENOUGH

[Beline4u]

Middle of last year I started my own business after being out of work for 15years, to bring out family up. We have 5 kids, which I solely do everything for. Even when I have no air in my lungs to give, I find a way to help/do everything.

My husband believes by doing the dishes here and now that he is "helping". Puttings kids in bed is "helping". I suggest he maybe he cook dinner one evening, then I'm followed round the house being asked "what should I cook?" Blah blah blah!!

Anyway, I agreed to put my business on hold after Christmas because kids will be home schooled and I cant do what I do when kids are at home, to add to that agreement, he isnt to take on weekend work (I know my triggers,I know what stresses me out etc) him work all week and then into the weekend is too much.

Now, I feel like everyones bloody maid. I've been feeling ill from monday and it's been getting worse throughout the week (not covid related) but I'm in pain. He decided to go to work. I support him in EVERYTHING he does, even when I dont like it, I still support him!

I am SICK of constantly expressing how I feel and not being heard!! I am SICK of giving so much of myself and not getting nothing back.

Feck, that's long- oops!

Stop being the martyr then and carve out the life you want because clearly he doesn’t give two shits about you. Sorry to sound harsh there .

You need to be as selfish as he is. Or leave.

@Blanca87 not at all harsh.. I think you're right! I'm so fed up. I can't seem to stick with boundaries. Like, I'll say I'm not doing it anymore, next thing I know, I'm bloody doing it. How do I maintain it? How do I say something and maintain it?! He use to me having "a rage" then just getting on with it.