Is there any point in trying anymore?

[mylittlelife]

I don’t see the point in things anymore.

What’s the point in eating healthy, what’s the point in getting dressed, making an effort?

This pandemic is absolutely shite. I thought the vaccines would make me feel better but all I continuously read is that they aren’t going to work because of the new variants.
So what’s the point in them then?!

I spend most days worrying about Covid.
It was my sons first birthday yesterday and I couldn’t even relax and enjoy it because the day before we had a visit from the health visitor and I’m now convinced I’ve got Covid and I’m going to die.

I had a breakdown yesterday, I smashed a glass whilst washing up, it sent me over edge and I just sobbed and sobbed.😣

I don’t leave my house unless it’s to go for a walk.

I can’t even go to the supermarket because I’m so frightened.

I’ve quit my job which I was due to return to in 8 weeks.
I can’t sit in an office all day with people and there was no option to work from home.

I have a BMI of 40 and an under active thyroid, I can lose weight but I just don’t feel like I get any enjoyment in anything other than food.

My Gp prescribed Sertraline and I’m having CBT but I don’t see the point. This pandemic isn’t going anywhere and neither is this shit way of living.

My son deserves better.

I feel very similar. The cbt and sertraline will help you. Even though it doesn't feel it will right now.
We will get through and find a better way. Things won't stay like this forever.

I say that as someone who was in tears most of yesterday after going to the drs with my 4 month old.
It's a lot to take on.

Also with the weight, I've been losing weight and my bmi is about 30.5 but I have had a wobble the past few days.
I keep telling myself I want to be as healthy as possible for my little ones but it is tricky when there's not much to look forward to.

You and your son both deserve better that a Mom crippled with fear, which is why you're an awesome Mom for getting help. Engage with the CBT like it's the difference between sanity and drowning. Take your medication as prescribed. Force yourself to follow the daily motions every day because your son has to be got up and fed and entertained.

It will get better. You will get what you and we all deserve which is more to life than this

You can lose weight and have really nice food while you do it!

Spring will come along soon - 6 or 7 more weekends and we'll be at Easter. The weather will get better and some sun will cheer you. It's not so long when you look at it that way.

And in 3-4 weeks we'll start to see a big drop in Covid admissions and deaths as older people who've been vaccinated start to develop immunity. Then we should be able to ease restrictions a bit.

It's only going to get better even if slowly. Ignore the doom and gloom in the papers and on here.

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Soon this time will be a tough memory and you'll be proud you got through it. In a really difficult time you had the courage to get help and that's an enormous achievement that many people don't manage. Take some time to recognise how well you're doing. The circumstances suck but you're doing great.

When it comes to weight etc, you're absolutely right it is a tough time to try to lose weight and try to be disciplined. Perhaps ignore the weight loss part of it for now and give yourself a break from scales if it's stressing you out. One thing at a time. I find focusing on the immediate: eating better and noticing how eating nourishing food and moving around makes you feel can be much more motivating.

You're not alone in this and you're doing great!

So sorry you’re feeling like this. I am having a bad day of pandemic/lockdown blues today and just want to sit in a corner and cry. It sounds for you like you could still have a lot of baby hormones floating around in there too.
Keep at it with the CBT and talk to Dr about adjusting your meds.
Things will get better x

It’s just so so hard. It’s nice to know I’m not alone, although it sucks that you feel the same way x

Dont despair OP. The Sertraline will kick in soon ( 3 weeks normally, if not, your GP will review & prob go higher dose).It really worked for me. And CBT is great for coping strategies & stopping negative thoughts. CBT for Dummies is a great help , to reinforce it & v cheap 2nd hand or new on Anazon. The end is in sight Covid wise , the vaccines are working & they do still offer protection against the new strains if you read the news. All the news graphs re no of new cases diving made me feel so much better today. It's very reassuring to see the graph peak has gone way, way down & is still falling. It's looking like March for school returns too, so light at end of the tunnel. Treat yourself to something like a bubblé bath or your favourite film today. Things will improve, but depresion makes you catastrophise & lose perspective. I hope you feel better soon.

I totally understand your feelings. But it will get better, there is light at the end of this shitty tunnel, it can't carry on like this forever. Hang in there and it will get better

I do understand your feelings, I am also feeling very down for all the same reasons you outlined. I also need to lose weight but as you have said good is the only thing to derive any pleasure from, so I’m focusing on not putting more on, as opposed to dieting, whilst at the same time getting more active. Would it help for you to think the same?
I bought a fit bit this week and that’s helping motivate me a bit. It’s been such a long hard winter, but spring is just around the corner.

It won’t stay like this forever, some restrictions will lift over summer. It’s an extremely crappy time, much worse for some than others.
It will end, try and take care of yourself. Eat as best you can, do some exercise if you can. Even small steps will make you feel better in a few weeks.

YABU for your last sentence. Your son already has the best. Maybe you should try meditating. Also get out for a walk several times a week. Don't stay coup up. Its the worse thing you can do.

I am a key worker and I'm also anxious. I'm mainly anxious about bringing it home and passing it onto my children & husband but I have to go to work. I do all that I can to protect myself and others - wearing a mask, anti bac, wash hands and surfaces down. That's all I can do.
Hang in there.