Sorry it's a bit long!
I worked in a role for 3 years. Really liked the people and the work culture. Felt I was a liked and appreciated part of the team (which is something I sometimes struggle with as I am autistic). It's a big employer which I found to be very accommodating, supportive and flexible regarding my disabilities.
About two years in I started to get itchy feet. I'd been very unwell and out of work for a year before I applied for the job and I wanted something that I knew I could do if I was having a bad day, that wasn't too taxing. This job was definitely good for that period of time and really helped me to get back on my feet and back into work, but I wanted to find something a bit more challenging as I found myself getting bored. I waited for a year to see if something else came up at the next grade which would have been a little more money and more of a challenge but nothing was advertised because of a big recruitment freeze. I was offered something elsewhere so decided to move on.
I've now been in the new job for a year and I'm really not enjoying it. It's very different to how the role should have been because of covid and I can't see it getting better. It's stressful and I know it sounds terrible but I've got total compassion fatigue dealing with the kind of clients we look after. My circumstances have also recently changed; my Mum has become very unwell and I'm looking after her, and I think this is going to be the case for the foreseeable.
A friend/ex colleague has just told me my old job is about to be advertised (because of covid they didn't recruit anyone when I left, so the post has been vacant for a year.) I know I might not get it but would it be mad to apply? I really can't decide. I know I like the people and the environment, even if the work is dull. I am fairly sure I do want to move regardless; I have applied for a couple of other things too. I was actually offered a different role by the original employer just before Christmas but they couldn't accommodate my request for flexible working in that team so it fell through which I was pretty disappointed about. I don't want to feel like I'm moving backwards but the familiarity is really appealing.
Would you apply?