To feel like I can't do this?

[paulhollywoodshairgel]

My DH has just been released from a 2 week hospital stay. It was discovered there, that he has heart failure caused by an infection. This has come as a massive shock to us. It can be kept stable but there's always a chance the meds won't work forever.

I am so happy he's home. I struggle daily with my mental health (EUPD, anxiety and PTSD) I feel like I ant take all of this in. I can't sleep, I'm watching him all the time. My anxiety is through the roof. We have 2 DC who are at school as we are both critical workers. Although we are both at home at the moment they are still going. I have massive guilt about this as well. I just can't do it all. House, kids, ill husband, work (when I go back next week). I just feel such a failure. Why can't I be one of those people who just take everything in their stride? My MIL keeps telling me I need to be brave and strong for everyone.. I'm neither brave nor strong. I feel like I'm being moody and snappy with my DH but I'm just physically and mentally exhausted. It's not his fault bless him. I just feel like I'm about to fold.

Your mother in law , unless she is providing a venting board ( ie being strong for you) needs to back off. I’m sure we’d all struggle in your circumstances. Is MIL retired, could she move in to look after the kids from home? Do you need the money from your jobs? Anything to take off pressure

I agree your mil needs to back off. Try and ignore her comments.
I don’t know what to advise except try to take one day at a time. Is there anyone you can talk to about the way you're feeling?
Good luck.

Agree with the others, unless mil is able to provide physical support (unlikely in our current situation) she needs to pipe down.
Most of us would struggle massively in your situation and probably feel like we’re about to fold.
Get rid of your guilt, you’re not doing anything wrong, sounds to me like you need to see a gp (although appreciate that this can be like climbing Mount Everest at the moment). Try to take one hour/minute at a time and stop putting yourself under so much pressure, really hope your situation improves, you’re certainly doing a fantastic job just getting out of bed in the morning.
Oh and these people that take things in their stride? Instagram/Facebook etc - not real 99% of the time people show you what they want you to see....