Aibu to feel like the worst Mum ever

[Mamacherie]

I am losing it and have no patience left with my kids. They are 18months and an almost 5 year old.
The 18 month old is so clingy and has been going through a sleep regression for the last month resulting in him waking and crying at night wanting me to stay in the room with him.
And my 5 year old, well he is bored at home and just does not stop talking. Constant mum, mum, Mum. Constant mess everywhere, I am eternally tidying up.

I am working from home as well as studying and my husband works offshore, I have childcare for when I am working unlike last lockdown so I feel I should not complain or feel stressed as others have it worse.
I just feel like I want to cry and scream but I can't.
I yelled at my son last night after he was rough with the little one and he later said he hates himself which made me feel like that is my fault for being so ragey and stressed and I am ruining him.
I don't know what to do. Any advice

Do you have a parent or relative willing to give you time off ?
Do you get them out every day for fresh air and exercise ?

I think most of us are in a similar situation. I spend quite a lot of time apologising to my kids.

Please don't be feeling that way. You're not at all.

You're doing the best you can under really, really tough circumstances.

So many others are feeling this exact way now especially due to trying to get everything done and stretching themselves too thin by having to do so.

Please don't be feeling down about things. You are juggling so much it would be strange if you weren't feeling this way. The fact that you're feeling that shows you're a good mother

I think 'mum' gets said at least 300 times a day in this house. It's very grating.

I haven't spoken to another parent these last few weeks who hasn't felt stressed or on edge. Even people without kids are feeling it. It's not natural for Humans to live like this.
One day at a time. One hour at a time really! If you feel your about to lose it, turn your back on your child, take 5 deep breaths and put a smile on your face. Then go from there. Easier said then done. But this what I've been trying recently.

Make sure you rest well. Eat well. Get fresh air and exercise.

Talk to people to. In real life. Not just online.

You are the not the worse mum ever. I think a lot of mums are feeling the same way this time around. It’s really hard. Don’t feel bad.

I’m finding it really hard too. My dc are even in school twice a week and I’m still losing the will to live most weeks!

I have no advice but don’t beat yourself up, don’t put too much pressure on your self. 💗

Take one day at a time. That’s what I’m doing. Some days are positive , other days I’m crying at the stress of it all. Just remember things will get better!