To be feeling sorry for myself

[TheoriginalLEM]

Its just been so shit, everything and then today im clearing my mums house, helping dp get a bed down the stairs and my back goes.

Im not able to even go to the toilet without help and ive taken every drug i can lay my hands on (all legal) yet im still practically fucking paralysed in pain.

I buried my mum last week. People tell me it gets better after the funeral. It doesnt.

Lockdown, all i do is go to work come home go to the supermarket that stresses me out .

Just had enough really.

Sick of wallowing in self pity but fuck me-God, mate .... cut me some slack

You poor thing, there are just too many things going on for you at the moment.

Give your back a chance to mend. Rest with some very gentle exercise can work wonders. Make a GP or chiropractor appointment if you're not getting better very soon.

I'm sorry about your lovely mum. You are right, of course it doesn't get better immediately after the funeral. But over the next few weeks you will gradually feel less sad about it. I hope you have lots of happy memories of her.

Mum was a demon but i really bloody loved her, so so much.

I need distracting, any ideas? Online games? A page turner of a book thats easy to read that will make me smile

Today i got a call from my boss, ive recently qualified in my field, as has a colleague. We have to reapply for our jobs, there is only one job.

Ffs really???

Can you get a taxi to see a physio or osteopath? Many are open. I am still seeing my osteopath who has been brilliant for my back issues. Also alternate wheat bag and ice pack. And Ibuprofen gel X

That is absolutely shit about your job Op, I'm really sorry. All you can do is throw yourself into the application and hope for the best. Do you get on with the other candidate? Can you talk to them about it?

can you get to a physio? I had crippling back pain (slipped disk) and one physio session made a massive difference.

also look at the back exercises on the NHS website - they can also help a lot.

Jesus... what a lot to cope with....

Look up an osteopath in the morning... can someone else do your shopping now (or online deliveries) scale back to ready dinners...

Have you anyone there looking after you? ☹🥺😞💐

I’m sorry, @TheoriginalLEM, what an awful time.
I find audiobooks an essential distraction. If you don’t already have audible you can get the first one free. May be JK Rowling’s Galbraith series: t.co/b591s8F9SN

Definitely get yourself to an osteopath op. So sorry for your loss

I think an osteopath is the way foreword. Im going into work tomorrow to see how i get on with admin stuff. Its an otherwise physically demanding role. Ive used up all my sick pay on covid so really can'tafford to lose more money also showing willing!! Ive seen another job that im going to apply for when i put my CV together for this role.

Right now id trade it all just to have my mum back. Chrust I'd mian about her, she was impossible but i never thought it was possible to miss someine physically like this

How are you doing this morning OP? X

Oh no!
My back went out, too, just a few weeks after I lost my Mum.
(About three years ago.)
I had only bent over to give my dog his water, and it was sudden,
searing, paralyzing pain!
I was alone, and couldn't reach my phone, so had to awkwardly lay
in a crumpled heap, until DH came in for lunch.
I could barely move for days.

If I had to go wee, I had to carefully scoot along the floor, on my bum,
to the toilet, then text my DH to come lift me up onto the loo!
It took about three weeks before it was mostly better.
(It will never be the same again.)
It's gone again a few times since, but not as bad as the first time.

Just stay in bed for a few days, or long as you can.
And you'll need to be careful with it, now and forevermore.
I pretty much sucks. I truly empathize.

And so very sorry for your loss.

So sorry. My thoughts are with you. X

Went into work today to do admin, i didnt last the day 😱