Really struggling today

[2021vibes]

I'm so fed up with this shit.
There's probably been a million threads similar but today is hard.
I'm usually positive and happy but thhe lockdown and school work is getting me down. 3 kids are fed up with one another and fighting all the time.
I'm trying to keep afloat here but today I'm just sinking a little.
It just all feels never ending and bleak.

I can't remember the last day I didn't cry. I have 13 year old twins in different sets at school so on the days I'm not at work (hospital worker) I am dashing between the two of them in different rooms trying to keep them both engaged in the work and not sneaking onto You Tube all the time.

I'm sick of deciding what we eat EVERY single meal, I'm sick of tesco being the only place I see. I miss my friends, I miss going for a cup of tea with my mum, I miss just deciding I'm going to get on the bus and have a wander around the shops - not to buy, just to see what's there, or to the library to see what new books there are.

I was in tesco today and their tannoy message about keeping colleagues and customers safe was just repeated over and over and over and over again. I TOTALLY understand they need to play it, they have people entering the store every minute who need to hear it, but I was at the point of just running out, I'm just so sick of this virus and how every second of our lives is changed by it.

I look forward and all I can see is months more of this and I'm not sure how much more it will take before I break. I don't even actually know what that means but I know I'm close to it.

I hear you OP. It feels better to know others feel the same, but obviously not good that people feel like this.

I had a bit of a cry today, am home schooling 3, then doing my full time job as DH is working all the time.

I look like shit, every time I go back to the hairdressers it looks good then we go into lockdown again and it goes grey. My skin is shit, I have massive bags under my eyes, I can’t be arsed to do my running as it’s too cold/snowing, middle child hates school Zoom, I am pissed off I can’t go somewhere warm, I am passed off our emigration plans will probably not happen, I am pissed off they let schools open for 1 fucking day when we hadn’t been near anyone then let me children hang around with 60 others plus teachers etc!

I am passed off with everything.

Solidarity

It's the kind of tired you feel in your soul 💐

@mrstnov13

It's the kind of tired you feel in your soul 💐

This. Just this.

About to head to bed for Groundhog Day to start again tomorrow.

Hugs and to all