To just want this relentless anxiety to stop...

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Im sorry there really is no point in this but i just need to get everything out of my stupid shouting brain. I am so consumed by anxiety i cant function. I wake up in the morning and have about a minute of calm before the dread just hits. It feels like when someone you know dies and you forget for a fraction of a second but then it comes crashing back... it literally is like a wave.

I cry all the time, i cried all of christmas day because i felt guilty for trying to enjoy myself. Im so scared about my future and i feel utterly hopeless...im only 24 for christs sake. I live with my parents, i work but only part time and minimum wage, i dont know how im ever going to get a 'proper job' and be independant or cope with working full time, even the thought of applying makes me physically sick.

But then i worry too that im just being lazy and making excuses and im really just running out of time. I cant even eat properly...i have an eating disorder that has become my crutch...being sick is my coping mechanism now its the only thing that makes this constant panic stop.

Im honestly not sure how ive messed up this badly i was so intelligent at school/university and now i can barely function. God i feel like a failure.

Can someone please tell me either to suck it up or that itll be okay because i feel like im trapped here forever. I just dont want to be here.

You need to speak to your GP as soon as possible, they will be able to help with the anxiety. It's a fucker to live with.

Anxiety sucks. Anti depressants were a lifesaver for me - allowed me the headspace to get my act together and build the life I wanted - have you spoken to your GP?

I am on antidepressants already but sadly theyre not much help. I am going to call Monday and see what more they can do.

Anxiety is crippling so you need to give yourself a break. We are living through a pandemic and right now living through it is the goal. You can sort out job etc later.

Have you ever talked to a doctor or therapist about the way you feel? I had crippling anxiety in my early 20’s, didn’t want to live, didn’t want to leave the house, felt a failure at everything. But I came through it. Antidepressants and therapy made a massive difference and helped me work out ways to cope and what I wanted to do with myself. I strongly urge you to talk to your doctor.

Please do yourself a favour; see your GP as soon as you can, get some anti anxiety meds, and give yourself a break.
You've just started adult life and then a pandemic hits. This is the most anxiety inducing and uncertain time most of us have lived through. Hopefully you have supportive parents?

@Thelnebriati

Please do yourself a favour; see your GP as soon as you can, get some anti anxiety meds, and give yourself a break. You've just started adult life and then a pandemic hits. This is the most anxiety inducing and uncertain time most of us have lived through. Hopefully you have supportive parents?

Very supportive, I am lucky. But again just worry im making excuses and theyre enabling me to do it! possibly could do with a bit more tough love from them really

Oh goodness darling you are just at the beginning of your life. Things can and will change for you I promise. Please be kind to yourself. Don’t look too far ahead and worry about what you can’t control. You are so young. Things will get better. You will grow in confidence with every experience. Life is hard at the moment and especially for young people i think xx

@Pommersy

Oh goodness darling you are just at the beginning of your life. Things can and will change for you I promise. Please be kind to yourself. Don’t look too far ahead and worry about what you can’t control. You are so young. Things will get better. You will grow in confidence with every experience. Life is hard at the moment and especially for young people i think xx

Thank you your reply made me cry. I do just feel like a failure before I even start

Hi OP,

Fellow anxiety sufferer here. If you go back to your GP, please ask to be referred to therapy in addition to antidepressants. Antidepressants are great if your illness is caused by chemical imbalances, but if it is behavioural therapy might be the way for you.

Here are a few things that help me function through my anxiety:

1. Get into a routine. Knowing what happens next, will help when things become to overwhelming.
2. Acknowledge your anxiety. This is a, weird one, when people get anxious they often default to telling themselves that they are being silly and there is nothing to be anxious about. I have started to tell myself that it's okay to be scared and sometimes that's enough to get back to normal.
3. Go outside everyday. Fresh air and exercise are great for mental health.
4. See if meditation is for you. I really like the app Medito to build a regular meditation habit.

You sound depressed. Not anxious.
Sorry to hear. Get some professional help. Talk to a gp. You deserve happiness. Take the first step