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DH been abusive verbally for years on and off. His drinking has built up to epic proportions since lockdown. He’s always had a problem with binge drinking at weekends but it’s every night now. He smokes and gets on at all of us about everything we buy even if it’s a small amount. It’s fine though for him to spend hundreds on fags. He keeps promising to stop but it just carries on. He makes a mess when he drinks, eats takeaways and I’m just at the end of my tether. I rarely drink these days and I just can’t see my future with someone who wants to dedicate the rest of his life to booze. I hate what drinking does to people. My mum has had a drink problem for years and calls me and is nasty when she’s had a drink. She’s made herself seriously unwell and so hard to cope with. Back to DH he will drink anything and has started hiding the fact he’s drinking. The other night we had a big chat and he said he was definitely giving up and I found a glass of wine behind a pile of books. Tonight was meant to be his first alcohol free day and he comes in being all nice and says “ I’m just having a couple tonight.” I just thought. Fuck this. This will never change will it. I hate the smell of booze, I hate seeing the bottles, I hate his friends for encouraging his drinking. It’s not his friends’ fault but they don’t know what a monster he is to me and the kids when he’s hung over. He’s lazy, lethargic looks like absolute shit. This isn’t going to change is it?