To ask how to get out of this slump

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I know so many people have it worse. People are losing loved ones or have ill health issues.

It's been a crappy year and I don't think I can get through the next week.

This year:

• husband moved out in Feb
• put on furlough and looked after toddler full time from May. Struggled as I previously worked full time and toddler was in nursery full time and I felt I lost my identity.
• at risk of redundancy but found another job due to start in Feb 2021.
• Christmas plans changed last minute but made the best of it and husband spent it with us.

Support bubble (my mum) is 2 hours away.

I suffer from depression and haven't been taking my medication religiously which is stupid.

This may sound ridiculous but what has tipped me over the edge is there was a mouse in my living room last night. I have such a phobia. Pest control called at a cost of about £300. They will be back in a week to remove any mice.

This week was going to be tough being in tier 4 with no company or respite from toddler as nursery is shut this week. Now I feel I can't even go downstairs as I am on edge. I have spent all day in bed which isn't fair on toddler but I can't face him or anything right now. I don't know how to get out of this slump. There is nothing keeping me going right now.

This sounds so pathetic but I just want to run away.

Can you just get out for a walk for an hour, it might just distract you and make you feel a bit better ? Or could ex take your toddler for a few hours ? Hope you feel better soon, anxiety is horrible and it sounds like you have a huge amount to deal with.

Just wanted to send my love.

Please start taking your pills religiously. You will feel so much better for it, I promise. Also getting out for walks daily will help with your depression. If you start making small changes now on how you can deal with your depression, then you'll be able to work on other things such as your divorce/marriage.
I hope 2021 is a better year for you.

Do take your medication as directed - if it doesn't help, talk to you GP about alternatives.
Get a cat 🐱

Thanks all. I do agree the medication is the key. It's a vicious cycle as sometimes I'm too depressed to do basic self care such as taking medication and then not taking it makes things worse and the self care takes more of a hit

Go and stay with your mum x

Does your ex take your toddler ? Try the medication, sometimes they take a while to start working.
Hope you're feeling better soon.