I run two businesses and have done quite well for myself. I have a home I love, a second home, some great friends, a happy relationship, etc. However I always have this niggling worry in the back of my mind about things going belly up and me not being able to support myself (I am very, very independent). There is no obvious reason why that would happen and I have investments in place that would provide a good safety net. But despite everything I have and have achieved I never just sit back, take stock and relax. Anyone else?
I also have the irrational fear that I might end up in prison because of something random e.g. getting caught in a crime scene or something just as ludicrous.
Or I fear I may lose my health. All things which would be outside my control (and I'm a bit of a control freak).
I just feel so stupid because many people would love to have the financial situation I have just so they could relax, breath again, but I don't seem to be able to enjoy it 100%. The stress of having staff that relies on me doesn't help (although I adore each one of them and they've been working for me for many years), especially in the current economic climate.
I wonder what it is that has lead me to this. My parents broke up when I was a child and it was very much a rich dad/struggling mum scenario (although I loved my dad and was much closer to him that I was to my mum) after that, although my siblings and I never wanted for anything. Both parents passed away when I was in my twenties (I was left very little - but that's another story) so I often wonder if this fear is due to the fact that I was pretty much left to figure things out by myself when I could have still done with some parental guidance.
Anyone else who feels this way? How do I snap out of this? I feel so bad about feeling this way when I have so much more than others have. Sorry if this post makes me out to be a spoilt, out of touch cow. I truly don't think I am.