I’m a childminder I start work mostly at 8am but can start at 7am and finish at 6pm. I have suffered with depression, sleep apnea for over a year and yes I’ll admit I have let things slide well more than slide not doing laundry, home chores, my health and self care, I just physically and mentally give up. I feel lazy and feel like I make excuses upon excuses.
Because I’m at home working I Apperently can get housework done I’ve told him repeatedly I can’t do that as I’m working I need to interact play with kids and do observations etc. He just don’t seem to understand this. After school walk I just need to crash and sleep I walk over 5 miles that a day.
I just got moaned at by him as I didn’t take the Christmas cards to the neighbours today.
I do all the chores around the house and the bins. Yes he works hard he owns a business but I feel like I don’t get any thanks and when I stand up for myself he makes me feel bad saying that he can’t bring anything up without me moaning at him but I always get
“Why didn’t you do this” “you can tidy the table in the week” “why is the kitchen a tip, I’m always tiding up after those children”
I have our two kids to look after also and I get them bathed, dressed and ready for bed when he lays on our bed reading his phone! I then have to moan and order him to get up for him to say goodnight to them. I’m tired doing this every day!!!!
I just want him to understand that this is not helping my loathing for myself. I have talked to him before but it’s like he don’t understand, I’ve asked for help with the laundry for example 1 day I got. Then I get remarks “can’t see why you can’t do this”