Probably not the right topic right now. I feel for those who had plans with their families that can no longer happen. 🌸
This year I’ve finally realised how much my family and often in laws drain me. I’ve been so much happier since lockdown as I haven’t had to see them (terrible thing to say I know).
I won’t go into detail but they can be toxic, controlling, awkward and often guilt trip us. They criticise everything. We like to do our own thing in our little ‘bubble’.
So Christmas this week as we know but living in tier 1 means I should be grateful I can see family somewhat but I don’t want to.
But I’m being guilt tripped into it. This happens every Christmas. We are made to feel guilty for trying to make our own plans. Was made to feel
guilty for not visiting Christmas Day yet we seen them on Christmas Eve. It’s not like we didn’t see them at all.
The thought of seeing them is making me anxious. It’s hard work, I don’t enjoy it and it just stresses me out.
I was looking forward to a Christmas at home! Surely with everything going on putting my foot down isn’t being unreasonable?!
Also. Neither of our families take the virus seriously. Mixing with everyone! Travelling to other areas very recently.