Hi all, I'm literally crying as I write this because I feel such intense sadness about my situation right now. Basically, me and my partner are experiencing infertility (I have pcos and don't ovulate naturally). We having been trying for a very long time and it is has resulted in me experiencing depression. Becoming a mother is the only thing I want in life and nothing else could ever compare to that for me. My partner already has a child from a previous relationship (she is 12) and he has joint custody. I get on really well with his daughter and we have a good bond - I do care very much about her. But I feel enormous sadness when she visits and I see them spending time together because it reminds me that my partner has everything I want with another woman. I never show these feelings in front of his daughter and disguise my sadness with smiles and jokes, but inside I feel absolutely distraught. Am I a terrible person for feeling this way?