Currently feeling very sorry for myself alone in my new place first time living alone. Stuck in bed feeling really ill as my condition is flaring up. Boyfriend and I said we would call each other before the boxing instead of our normal time so he could enjoy his evening with his house mate. I had no clue what time it started so when I called him about grabbing a gift I had scene in the supermarket he wanted for his brother he said he was watching tv and would call me tomorrow. My best friend said she was driving and would call me when she got home in five minutes she didn’t Instagram says she’s out for dinner and Christmas shopping it’s been 3 hours since I called. I cried from the pain earlier and ended up in a panic attack. The morphine hasn’t helped. I’m trying to book a therapist to see if she can help with my panic attacks but how do I help with the rejection feeling my ex was very abusive and would say he would call or take me to dinner and then wouldn’t but blame it on me saying I had done something to stop it happening and go off to the pub or spend time with his mates. I know my boyfriend hasn’t done it for those reasons at all he’s a very lovely boyfriend and so supportive but he’s probably just forgotten he’s never not called me before.