I don’t even know where to begin really. My mum is driving me insane. She was the best when I was little, my sister and I really couldn’t have had a better childhood but for the last 10 years she has been a complete nightmare. She’s rude and sucks the joy out of every moment of my life. She doesn’t like my hair, my clothes, my makeup. Whenever I cook it’s not up to her standards. Since turning 30 earlier this year all she has talked about is the fact that I don’t have children yet and that I want her to die miserable and that’s why I haven’t had any even though she didn’t have me until she was 42 and I never got to meet my grandparents!! Anyway today just pushed me over the edge, she always moans that she has to do everything for Christmas even though she insists and won’t let anyone help. Yesterday she said she needed to get the pudding but didn’t have time so I went and got one for her and dropped it round, her exact words we “oh, that’s not the one I’d have chosen but you never did inherit my taste for the finer things in life”. The pudding was fine and she doesn’t even eat it!!! I just snapped and took the pudding back and told her to go and buy her own.
I keep thinking about how much happier I’d be if she wasn’t in my life but then I feel guilty because I do love her but I absolutely can’t stand her.
I don’t know if this even makes sense but I’d appreciate some opinions.