AIBU to think after waiting months to have the house to myself...

[CleanTheImpossibleCleanAKAOven]

I am lonely

Before this crap year, I was content pottering around the house by myself when everyone was out at work/college/uni/school etc. Obviously everything changed and in the first lockdown and recent weeks DH and DC were furloughed/ill/laid off etc. Obviously it's been incredibly stressful and shit, as I know it has been for lots of people.

Now they have all returned to work/school etc which is obviously good news. I have spent months wishing for peace and quiet and the house to myself, but now it's here it's shit. I'm bored and lonely and the hours are so long. I seem able to fill some hours in the mornings but then just drift round the house trying to entice the cat to play with me Has anyone else felt like this?

I had to stop work a couple of years ago due to illness and have a disability now that prevents me doing a lot and has worsened this year so some of my old hobbies are out. I know people will suggest new hobbies but I have done so much already. Sewing, whatever exercise I can manage, MNing, embroidery, cooking, gardening, reading, watching Netflix etc. There is stuff I can no longer do really eg online courses, research, selling stuff online and my attention span has gone to shit so I spend a lot of time picking stuff up and putting it down. I have no money to spend on anything eg fabric. I'm also tired a lot of the time (moan moan whinge).

Is anyone else thinking they should have been careful what they wished for?...

Also (and this is bad, I know ) I feel irritated sad that no one is here to offer me cups of tea or allow me to have a long bath or pick up stuff I drop on the floor...

Sorry to hear you're feeling like that! I'm afraid it's human nature - we adapt and become accustomed to things... The good news is that (based on my logic) you'll soon become accustomed to pottering around alone again... I guess the grass is always greener, too!
Have you tried meditation? It might help with your attention span? And you're definitely not being unreasonable about the baths - I'm currently pregnant and desperately missing my super hot baths!

Oooh Dillo you have a baby to look forward to, lovely I should have explained the baths as it looks like I was barred from the bathroom by DH or someone I'm epileptic so don't bathe alone in the house.

I don't know if it's the same, I tried mindfulness but just got bored so easily. I shall look into meditation...maybe I need to work harder!

The irony is I'm looking at a huge pile of paperwork that is overdue for sorting/filing since September...

I feel exactly the same! I'm a housewife, kids at school, husband back to work. I don't work due to a debilitating back problem.
It was so intense when they were all off, I cried nearly every day and longed for bedtime. Now the house is empty and silent and I don't know what to do with myself! I can't remember what I did before! I always find I feel like this during winter. Spring / summer I'm outside all the time and it's all lovely. Got to keep pushing forward one day at a time and get through the winter. I watch a lot of TV

"can't remember what I did before"

YES tea! Sorry you're suffering too though. Winter is, IMO anyway, definitely more hard if you have a disability/health problems.

I think (and I get the irony here ) that I did actually do more stuff before as my memory was better. It's my working/short term memory so makes it do harder to do things like study/read. Also it makes me nervous to cook as I have signs up everywhere about turning hobs off etc. It wasn't so bad when other people were in the house. (And we have changed to an electric oven from gas!)

(I still don't clean it )